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How Thinking I Was Going Blind Heightened My Spiritual Awakening
Everything that happens to you is happening for your greatest good.
That statement helped me get through a recent health scare.
One morning I woke up with no vision in my right eye.
To put it mildly, I was scared shitless: I went to bed one night seeing perfectly fine and the next morning it was cloud city.
It felt like I had a layer of fog covering my eye obstructing my vision.
Like with many unforeseen dilemmas in life, the mind did what it does so well: it dove head-first into crisis mode imagining all the worst-case scenarios.
When I went to the doctor they tested the vision of my right eye by asking me to read what I saw on the screen.
You know that giant letter “E” commonly seen on eye charts?
It was just a black blob floating among a sea of clouds.
Then they decided to run some more tests and told me they found something on my left eye as well.
Now I really lost it.
I felt like I was going completely blind.
Not to sound dramatic but for a few minutes, it felt like my life was forever changing.
At one point while I was nervously waiting to get the diagnosis from the doctor, I remember turning to my wife and saying “I can’t recall being this scared in my entire adult life.”
It turned out (surprisingly) they found a pretty advanced cataract on my right eye and one coming on strong on my left.
Thankfully, I was able to get the first one removed with surgery and now I am seeing better than I ever have.
The Realness of Feeling You’re In A Nightmare
In hindsight now that everything turned out well, it’s easy for me to judge my initial reaction by saying that I jumped to conclusions and unnecessarily put myself into a state of fear.
That might be true but it doesn’t take away the realness of that fear in that exact moment and how crippling it feels to think your life might be forever changing.
